JENuine Conversation

I have come from a looooong history of "stuff." Yeah, lets call it stuff. I come from a family with atheism, Islam, alcoholism, addiction, homeless, broke as a joke,  and much more. I know what it is like to be at rock bottom. Heck, I had a blanket and pillow there for a while! Since I have such a "stuffy" past, it is really hard to open up to people. It is really hard to trust people. It is really hard for me to trust because that bond has been broken so many times. So once I open up to you, you should feel special because you are special to me. I will tell people bits and pieces about my life, but never near the full story. There will always be at least one missing link. Except for the special 5. I've only opened up completely to 5 people and after that...they usually distant themselves to an extent. It really does suck! I am not my past. I never will be my past again. I am a strong independent woman who is ready to take on the world because my past has made me stronger. I'm at peace with my past and I am willing to share with anyone who is interested. Just don't back away from me once you find out what I really have been through. 

I'm ready to live my life. Have conversations with people. Get to know them. Let them get to know me. Have deep meaningful heart to heart conversations. Having deep, heart to heart conversations with someone is such a stress reliever. Nothing really compares to a beautiful conversation with a beautiful mind. Just time to break down your walls and see what others are really thinking. It doesn't have to be the same mindset as you, just listen to what someone has to say. These heart to heart conversations are the type of conversations I am starting to realize I really enjoy. No more small talk. Heart to heart conversations are the best to me. Everyone's vulnerable. Vulnerability attracts honesty, honesty attracts soul connections. I won't ask for too much if you just give me three things - honesty. consistency. JENuine conversation.