How old would you be if you didn't know how old you are?
Want can I say. I'm old. Yeah, I'll be 24 surrounded by people turning 21. But that's not what I'm talking about in this blog. I'm just old. I'm an old soul. Always have been, always will be. I've known since I was quite young, when my mom told me just how unique my outlook on life was compared to the majority of the other kids around me. I was always "strange" and a little too quiet. Growing up, I was shy. Believe it or not, if I wasn't your friend...I didn't speak to you. I was always in my thoughts. I always had to process things. Mom always says, "You didn't look at the clock when we asked you what time it was. You would wonder why the clock ticked, why is one hand shorter than the other, what is time?" I'm being 100% serious. My mom probably hated raising me. Right mom? (Shoutout to her cause I know she is reading this.)
I don't mind being an old soul! Luckily, there are many perks that come with my old soul. Most of it involves maturity. Maturity will serve me well throughout life. Provides a beautiful sense of how to approach the world with an open mind, and a strong will that keeps me grounded in my own convictions. I know what I want and I don't settle for anything less.
But being an old soul makes me feel kind of responsible. And it makes me feel a need to be more mature. And I really like that people think I am grown up but it is a deed of responsibility. But it is also a negative. Being an old soul can cause anxiety for me. I can't share the depths of my thoughts with most people because they don't 'get it,' and that can be difficult. So most of the time I stay hush hush about topics. Being surrounded by people (both loved ones and those I'm not too fond of) who refuse to or simply cannot see the other side of any given situation makes me feel like I'm speaking a foreign language... It can be lonely being both logical and empathetic.
I think the hardest part when being an old soul is finding people that can understand you. It's kind of a lonely feeling. I don't fit in with people my own age most of the time. They think I'm uncool or boring. However, older people ONLY see my age and lump me in with immature. I always take the "old soul" thing as a compliment, but I'm not sure it's always meant as one. For the most part, it makes me feel mentally superior. Even though that's not always the case. I just like talking and listening. (Plug in for my past Jenuine Conversation blog that y'all should go read after this.) I'm not claiming I'm smarter than anyone. I just like viewpoints of multiple people.
So, being an old soul is perfectly fine for me. The question is, how old would you be if you didn't know how old you are?
I don't mind being an old soul! Luckily, there are many perks that come with my old soul. Most of it involves maturity. Maturity will serve me well throughout life. Provides a beautiful sense of how to approach the world with an open mind, and a strong will that keeps me grounded in my own convictions. I know what I want and I don't settle for anything less.
But being an old soul makes me feel kind of responsible. And it makes me feel a need to be more mature. And I really like that people think I am grown up but it is a deed of responsibility. But it is also a negative. Being an old soul can cause anxiety for me. I can't share the depths of my thoughts with most people because they don't 'get it,' and that can be difficult. So most of the time I stay hush hush about topics. Being surrounded by people (both loved ones and those I'm not too fond of) who refuse to or simply cannot see the other side of any given situation makes me feel like I'm speaking a foreign language... It can be lonely being both logical and empathetic.
I think the hardest part when being an old soul is finding people that can understand you. It's kind of a lonely feeling. I don't fit in with people my own age most of the time. They think I'm uncool or boring. However, older people ONLY see my age and lump me in with immature. I always take the "old soul" thing as a compliment, but I'm not sure it's always meant as one. For the most part, it makes me feel mentally superior. Even though that's not always the case. I just like talking and listening. (Plug in for my past Jenuine Conversation blog that y'all should go read after this.) I'm not claiming I'm smarter than anyone. I just like viewpoints of multiple people.
So, being an old soul is perfectly fine for me. The question is, how old would you be if you didn't know how old you are?
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