Let the music take CONTROL

After my depressive episode I've been in lately, I sat slouched idly into a chair somewhere I desperately didn’t want to be. In this dark, dark place, I put some thoughts together. The thoughts flowed, not requiring much ‘thought’, instead they sort of, just appeared. They were music related thoughts. Anyhow, it relates to an epiphany I had.

I can be self-obsessed. I can become attached to my thoughts, and in the process, identify myself with them strongly. This then stands in the way of a great deal. For me, self-conscious becomes shy, it becomes concealed, it becomes fearful, judgmental, paranoid, wary, and a list of other words that mean the same thing! Most of all it keeps me from being free.

I do like music. A great deal in fact. This epiphany pushed me to realize where I can find freedom again with music. It’s due to the simple fact that music takes me out of that spiral of ‘me’. I can enjoy something outside of what is going on inside. And that helps me. Through music I can find comfort in the moment and in myself. Simply from not over thinking, projecting into the future or attaching to the past, and through the wonders of sound, I feel overawed with gratitude for this life.

I love slapping my headphones on without any elegance and ‘no one’ as my audience. I am a strong believer in the power of art, music, and connection. I am a believer that music speaks when you can’t. The next time that someone shares their favorite songs with you, embrace them, because they're giving you a small glimpse into their soul. Listen.